She Didnt Deserve You

She Didn’t Deserve You

　
　
Why do you consistently put her through this
You say you love her but you don’t show it
You say you care about her but you don’t show it
You say you miss her but you don’t show it
You do more talking then showing her that you really mean it
And words is just nothing but lie until you put meaning unto them
I know that’s your woman
But your suppose to tend to her every need
You have a woman in your life so act like it
Don’t lie to her
Cheat on her or be on that bull with her
And don’t have her on the side assuming things or wondering if you care or wondering if shes better off without you
I mean if that’s the case then be real with her and let her know that
Other wise tend to her as your suppose to
Your suppose to be giving her everything her heart desires
Don’t just have a beautiful, intelligent, ambitious woman in your life if your not going to act like she exist
Yea I know you’re her man and all but when your not around then who are you to her??
When your not giving her attention, then who are you??
When your not giving her body what it wants when it wants it, who are you??
When your not kissing her, holding her, making her smile, making her laughing then who are you to her??
When your nowhere to be found when she needs you then who are you??
Tell me who are you to her when she needs that love and tender care that a man is suppose to give to a woman??
I tell you who you are…..a NOBODY
Yeah I understand you being busy
Trust I know you have a life still and she has a life to live as well
But when your in a relationship, communication is the key to a strong healthy relationship
And when you don’t give her that then there is no relationship
I mean you barely even talk to her
You just go on about your business and tend to the situation whenever you feel like it…..
How much of a man are you to give a woman less than what she deserves?
She put time and effort into you and your suppose to give the same in return
She’s has given you her all and has given you something real
So why act like you don’t see it?
Why act like you don’t want her?
Why act like you don’t know what you have?….
Realize what you wont do for her someone else will
Don’t take your spot in a relationship for granted
Getting too comfortable isn’t the way
Always tend to the person you are with because if you don’t you’ll soon find yourself replaced…..
You obviously don’t take what you have seriously
And you obviously is not taking yourself seriously
Because its not her and its not the relationship
Its whats in you that’s not serious
Know what you have before it becomes something you had
And in your cause it has become what you had….
She deserves better and you should know that
Never waste a womans time if your not serious about giving her yours
Dedication and love is what your missing in you
Be dedicated to yourself before you dedicate your time and heart to someone
And love yourself and God before you can love someone else
Do better next time you decide to get what another woman
Be a man and show a woman that you are the right man for her
Don’t blow her trust, feelings or love for you just because you didn’t realize what you had
Get it together before you make a together with someone
Learn from this and move on….
Because at the end of the day you weren’t ready
And she didn’t deserve you

Why dont women realize a good man when they see one?

Women just dont see a good man when they see one, even if they gave them the best sex they ever had or slapped them in the face; point blank they just dont realize it until its far too late. It kills me that women always brag about how they arent any good men left out there when truth of the matter is they are all right in front of you, but too blind to notice them. Women now and days rather go for those types of guys who dont how their life together, be all in the club every week, plays mind and hearts games and, by far the most common one, that ones that dont know what they want. Women consistently mess with those types of guys and wonder why they cant find a good guy. Ladies, its because you messing with the wrong group and types of guys. Every women has that one guy friend thats tried to get with them but yet they have turned down all because they look into the future to much. Why worry about whats in the future with that person when you should only be worried about right now. That good guy friend is doing something all men should be trying to do with you and thats actually fighting for you. But you dont notice him now do you? No women dont, they instead look pass them as just a friend without at least giving that good guy a chance. Women rather give a guy who plays games, plays hard to get and doesnt know what he wants a chance rather then giving that good guy thats tried to get with you a chance. That good guy knows how to treat a women, inside and out, but you dont realize that, do you? He wants to actual be with you for you, love you for who you are, care for you, trust you, cherish moments with you, be there for you and etc. I mean some of those things he's already doing but you still fail to realize that. All you just see is a friend. He may not be the best of looking, he may not have every freaking feature you want in a guy, he may not dress the fliest of all guys, but dammit he gives a damn about you. He's got everything a man is suppose to have, but once again you fail to realize that. Women have to stop looking into the future and arguing with themselves about someone thats showing them what a good guys is. Stop complaining about there arent any good guys out there when he is right in front of you. If he's trying to be with you, why waste your time with others who try and get with you for there own personal reasons. Give that good guy a chance because it just may work out between you two. If not, oh well, you live and learn and thats whats life is all about. Realize that good guy right in front of you before you lose him and then it may be far too late to get him back into your life.

Cant Seem to Find your Love

I cant seem to find your love that I was seeking for
The love the I needed more and more
I cant seem to find your love that was beating in my heart
The love we had from the very start
I cant seem to find your love that was spoken
But now it seems very broken…..
Because pain has stricken
Between us
And now there is no us
There is no love
No pleasure, no passion, no affection….
No nothing…
Pain has struck and I guess I have no more luck
With your love…
My only promise that I had when we first loved each other was to never hurt you
Never forsake you for the person you are and the love that we’ll share
Never hurt your heart and put anything less then a smile upon your face….
But seems as if I broke my promise
And its your love that I will truly miss….
I’m sorry for the pain that I put in your heart
I’m sorry for the tears I made run down from your eyes
I’m sorry for the damps I have put across your soul
I’m sorry for losing the most important thing that meant the most to us
Love….
I cant seem to find your love
The love that came from above
But now that its gone
There’s no need for me to stay….
I hope you find better love then the love we shared
For I wish you the best of luck
At love and happiness
I’ll miss your love….

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My Goodbye Letter

There comes to a point in everyone’s life that we all have to take our last breath
See our family for the last time
See that special someone for the last time
Take that last hug and kiss
Take that last exciting moment in our life
Take that last conversation with friends…..
Everyone has to experience they’re last of something…..
When I take my last of everything
I don’t want people to cry
I don’t want people to have a damp in they’re hearts
I don’t want people to think down upon they’re lives
I don’t want people to think less of me as a person as when I was alive
I don’t want all that….
I want to only be remembered….
As a person friends, family, love ones and others have got to known for a long time
I know its going to be sad to see me gone and see how I reflected on some people lives…
I know frowns are going to be on many faces upon those I love and care about the most
But yet I just want people to understand and how this thought in they’re minds and hearts…
I may be gone but I will still be with each and every person that I love and cared about dearly, live in they’re hearts….
All I want from life now is happiness and love
And all I want to when I don’t see another day, is to be remembered and loved
That’s the most I want from everyone in my life today
Remembered and loved
Just love and remember me for all the laughs we shared
All the smiles we had
All the times I may have gotten on your nerves
All the times I was there for you when no one else was
All the times I stayed up just for you
All the times I didn’t bother to listen to you but yet I still did what you told me to do…..
Just remember and love me when I’m gone
Remember the good and the bad….
Remember my mistakes and know I never gave up trying to improve them
Remember my determination
Remember my drive, my passion, my courage, my love, my respect…..
My everything…..
Remember me everyone
Just remember and love me
One day you will see me again and when you do we’ll pick out where we left out
I love and care about you all in my life today
And I’m very blessed to have such great people in my life
I shouldn’t even call this “My Goodbye Letter”
I should really call it “My see you Later Letter”
Cause I will see you later
Whenever God calls your name to come home as well…..
Much love to you and your life
And I will see you later……

Far From Home/No Friends

Far from home just makes me feel left out by my family
And being where I am just makes it feel even worst to be far from them
I know this is my life and career but yet I feel like, “why am I really here“?
What am I really doing here?
I mean I feel like being here is just wasting my time when I could be somewhere I want to be becoming successful
I mean being where I am is good to me but yet I feel like what I’m doing here is just a waste of my time and also my money
Being here just makes me miss my family a lot
Mainly because I don’t want to be where I am right now
I don’t feel comfortable with this type of environment
I mean don’t get me wrong I love the friends I have and also the beautiful women I see everyday
But yet I still cant get over the fact that I’m somewhere I don’t want to be at…..
I know I made a big mistakes coming to a place where I knew from the get go I should not be
Or better yet somewhere I didn’t want to go…..
Most people don’t really fully understand my point when I tell them my reasons why I don’t like it here
I try and explain to some but yet its like people wont really fully understand my story behind me being here….
But the most important people in my life really don’t get my point in why I don’t want to be here
Its like they hardly care about how I feel towards my life right now
I mean I still and always will love, care and respect them
That’s never going to change
But yet for them to not understand me right now in my life, really hurts a spot in my heart….
Being far away from them isn’t so much easy as people want to put it
Its kind of hard for me to be far from home with no one hardly to talk to or associate with
I have so little amount of friends I can pretty much name them on one hand
That’s how low it is….
But basically beside those few, I have no friends….
Coming here I had somewhat of a bunch of friends, but when me and those friends got here
They seem to forget who I was….
Though it is sad, I basically am use to people being friends at first to me but then some point later they’re gone and I’ll never see or talk to them again……
I care when I lose friends but nevertheless I still have a careless feeling that goes on inside of me
So I just let it go and let it be it is what it is…..
I don’t beg for people to associate with me
Because I’m going to do me and make it into life whether I have friends or not….
I am glad of the few friends I have but deep down besides having no friends I’m also missing someone special that I can really talk to and get somewhat close to
I am mentally, emotionally and physically ready for a relationship but yet I am patient
Because I don’t want to rush so I’m going to wait till I spot that very special one
I am a little bitter on waiting but its for the best though…..
Being far away from home and having no friends has put a some damp into my heart
Because without those things motivating me, its hard to concentrate on my life and what I’m doing
Though its hard to be away from home with no friends
I will try and keep my head up and think positive
I wish I had something to spark my life right now
But the only thing that can spark my life now is my book and also you

In And Out

What you see is my outside....
My appearance.....
What I can do....
What I can be.....
But what you don’t see is my inside....
You cant see what’s inside of me.....
What’s inside of me matters the most
Whether relationships, friendship, family, lover, etc.....
The outside just tells a fantasy....
But my inside tells a story.....
My inside is what makes me whole and who I am....
The heart, the mind, the soul
Gives me, passion, integrity, strength, power, knowledge, loyalty, respect......
Love......
You cant tell If I have all that just by looking on the outside....
You have to get to know me from that inside and out....
If you just stay on the outside
All you getting is now.....
If you get on the inside....
You get a future and a forever......
Inside last longer then just what you see on the outside.....
Outside is your attention...
But the Inside is your innovation......

Going Home

One day, I will have seen all the things that i needed to see
One day, I will eat all the things that I needed to eat
One day, I will have learned everything that I needed to know
One day, I will stop breathing.......
Don’t know when, but it can happen anytime and anywhere.....
Once I take that last breath
That last heart beat.....
That last touch from a love one.....
That last kiss......
I’m gone......
Friends left behind.....
Family left crying, wishing I never left......
Its too soon for him to go, your friends and family would say.....
But there shouldn’t be any tears, no sorrows no complaints......
I’m gone physically......but I'm always here in spirit.....
It was just my time to go home.....
God called me in.....
So I cant fight it, I must go home......
So hold on to your tears.......I will see you when you come home.....
I will surely miss you, but.......
I will see you soon.......
Going home is a new life and a new start
So I'll be going home one day....
But for now Ima live everyday as its my last......

My Beautiful

My beautiful is one of a kind....
My beautiful is unique
My beautiful is fine from her head to her behind
My beautiful is smart
My beautiful is funny
She always keeps me laughing....
My beautiful is open-minded and says whats on her mind no matter what it is....
My beautiful is soft, everywhere on her body...
My beautiful is passionate....
When she kisses me, when she hugs me, when she does things to me that I love....
My beautiful gives me drive, excitment, action, fun, pleasure......
My beautiful keeps it real and 100 with me....
My beautiful never has to lie to me about anything
My beautiful is stylish no matter if she doesnt have every new shoes or clothes all the time
Just makes her own swagg out of what she has....
My beautiful is independent
She doesnt rely on me for everything, she wants or needs.....
My beautiful is down for anything
My beautiful understands me and everything I been through
My beautiful listens to me and always keep me thinking
My beautiful calls me just to say hey or I love you.....
My beautiful helps me get up when Im down
My beautifulis my heart, my love, my everything.....
My beautiful is a woman, not a girl
My beautiful is a wife
And I hope to find my beautiful one day and make her mines.....

More Then Sex

Relationship are more then just laying down
Opening your legs or putting something between them
Its more then sex to any relationship....
Before you lay down, answer this??
Is it worth it in the long run?
Whats gonna happen after yall do it?
Are yall just doing this just to do it?
Is there real feelings between yall or just want some cause you have a appetite for some?
Is it love of like?
Answer that and tell me what you will say now....
Why most it be about sex all the time....
When its all about that....
There's no trust, no respect, no love, no passion, no loyalty
No nothing......
It should be more then sex in a relationship....
Should be care, passion, respect, loyal, trust, interest and love
There's nothing wrong with kissing, hugging, touching, etc....
But when you get down and lay down...
What happens next?
Be real to yourself, your mind and your body.....
So before you lay down and make that decision to do it....
Make sure your in the right mind set.....
ANd at least do it for the right reason....
Its more then sex
If you stop and think....
If it aint real dont push yourself to make it....
And if that other person doesnt understand...
Close your legs or pull up your pants....
And walk away
Its better to be real then to be fake....
Its more then sex....
If you listen to your heart.....

Love Yourself

Nobody knows you but yourself and God
Love yourself and know yourself is all on you
You cant love someone, unless you can love yourself....
Or love God.....
You cant expect yourself to fall in love with someone unless you love, care, trust and respect you
You say you love him or her.....
You say he or she is the one
You say I love who he or she is and how he or she makes me feel......
But you should stop and think
Do I love myself?
Do I believe in me.....
Can I be happy by myself.....
The things I do and the things I say
I may not like who I am, but you should love where you stand
You may not love or like where your at right now.....
But realize you couldnt be where you at right now
You could be dead.....
Dont rush love or into it
Because love can rush away from you...
Learn to love for who you are....
Get to know you and your mind, heart and body....
Before you know that special someone you want to love......
Its better to depend on your heart then the mind
The mind says alot, but the heart says whats real and true......
Love and know you before you risk loosing any kind of love in the future....
Love yourself.....

I Want To Know

Its more then your beautiful and your apperance that I want to see and feel
I want to know your heart, soul, and your mind.....
Its more then your outside that I want to know.........
I wanna know the inside of you
Take you out and sit you down and get to know you
Know things you wouldnt tell other people
Know things that make you laugh
Things that make you happy, sad, mad.....
Things you wanna do, but you want someone else to do for you.....
Things you cant do, but you want someone else to do for you.....
I wanna know what makes you cry
What makes you feel good.....
What makes you love someone......
I wanna fall in love with your heart and soul, not just by the way you look......
If I could fall in love with someone's beauty, I be married now
But I dont want that....
I want somethin true and real
I want to give you drive, passion, desire, romance.....pleasure.....love......
I want what comes from within not from without....
I want to know the inside of you
The outside matters to me, but if you dont have the right heart and soul then it just won't work.....
The outside is your apperance and what you can offer me and give me physically and also pleasure
Also the outside is what can please me
The inside is what I wanna witness.........
The inside is what I can feel, seek, pursue, trust, respect, care and most important love.....
Thats what I want to know and thats where I wanna be.........

T.I. "Pledge Allegiance to the Swag" featuring Rick Ross, Official Versi...

How Could You Love

How could you love, without loving yourself
How could you love, without loving God
Hoe could you love, if the sun doesnt shine
If the sky isnt blue or black
If the grass wasnt green
If the wind didnt blow
If the tree's werent tall
If the rain.....wasnt pouring
If the thunder didnt......make a sound
If the lighting had no light.........
How could you love
If its not in your heart
Not on your mind
Not even in the soul......
How could you love, without a kiss from the lips
A hug from the body and arms
A stare into ones eyes
The touch of a hand
Without.......the thought of it.......love
A rushing heartbeat
A phone call or text
Without making contact with them at all.....
How could you love
You lie, you cheat, you disrespect, your fake......
How could you love without.........
Respect, care, loyalty, passion, honor, trust........
You cant...........
How could you love.......
Without singing it, praying for it, asking for it.........
Saying it...........
How could you love
If the love isnt true, real and honored
How..........
How could you love..........
Hoe could you love the impossible but not the possible??
Tell me that and maybe you could love............

Pursue A Heart

Don’t pursue something you don’t already have
Work towards your happiness to your heart and soul
Not towards what’s in your pants
Work towards love and passion
Pursue that towards someone else, someone special
Because instead of pursuing what’s between someone’s legs
You should really pursue someone heart
And guys have to realize that
Don’t go after what you desire or want but go after what u need in life
Yeah you are going to need and want what’s between someone’s legs, but how about you worry about that when that time comes to talk about that
I’m not mad at you for being a freak or nothing
Because I’m one myself
But yet its not all about what’s between someone legs that I’m all worry about
I know how I was raised and I wasn’t raised on getting what’s between her legs or when I am going to get some…
Wasn’t raised on that
Was raised to always respect a woman for who she is and not what she has between her legs
I’ll get what’s between a woman’s legs when and after I get to her heart, her soul and her love first
Or if and only if she wants to go there but I’m not all worried about that until the time is right or when her time is right
So guys just need to pursue someone's heart instead of what’s between someone's legs
Can’t find love down there
Got to find it in they're heart and also yours…..
Pursue a heart before you pursue anything else in between
A woman’s heart is precious
So don’t throw your chances away by going after what’s between her legs
Go for her heart and treat her with love and respect
Otherwise you may live your whole life on regrets…..
　

A Real Women

A real woman is hard to found these days.....
I mean I believe they're out there.....
Some dudes treat a real woman like other girls they been out with
But a real woman are different from any other women out there.....
Real women care, love, trust, are smart, independent in there own way, and deserve respect to the fullest.....
Dudes these days cant treat a real woman like crap, wit no respect, no love, no trust and not even being loyal to them.....
Real woman deserve what they need and they need that special love, that trust, that tender kiss, that soft hug, that special place in there heart.....
Some women say they're real.....
But yet your opening your legs to every dude or kissing every dude or teasing dudes like nothing.....
A real woman doesn’t do that.....
And if that man whoever she sleeps with or teased was real, he would know to leave her alone.....
Its a little thing called fake men......
Fake women and fake dudes belong to each other, real talk......
So fake woman don’t bring your fakeness to a real man and fake dudes don’t bring your fakeness to a real woman.....
Real recognize real......
Realest I am, I need a woman.....
Not a woman that has been around a lot.....
I don’t want something everybody else has had......
Not a woman that wont love, care, trust, or cheat on me
I’m a real man looking for a real woman, that can love me and be real with me to the fullest.....
So I need a real woman, that I can be with and also love.....
Who knows she might be my wife.....only time will tell
Just have to be patient and wait till I find......A real woman......

One Star

Hello one star
How you doing and hows it been......
Shining all bright by yourself
Guess the others will shine later.....
One star you make me think.....
Make me wonder......
Its like everytime I lookup at night
Your there....
Seems like your always watching me.....
Seems like I feel more comfortable that your there...
I feel protected when Im around you.....
Feel like anything goes down you got my back
You make me think one star
Think of someone near and dear to my heart
You make me think of my granddad.......
I miss him so much
Wish he was here......
But I know he's always watching me
You know what one star I know who you are.......
Your my granddad......
Because I know he's always looking down at me....
And every shine you make one star
I'll always know its him smiling at me.....
So everytime Im walking from somewhere or to......
I know to always look up.....
And know that my granddad is you
I'll never think Im walking alone.....
As long as you are shining
I'll always be protected
Thank you one star.......
You are far from forgotten
R.I.P 11-15-07